I have not seen past season 1 of this show yet, but I’m loving it so far! This guy has been one of my favorites but he’s been absent for like 6 or something episodes lately 
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what the FUCK is Mollari up to this dude is bordering on ordering literal genocide??
what is Delenn transing into?? a guy maybe??? 
where the HELL is Sinclair I want him back. His replacement kinds sucks lmao
Garibaldi might be the straightest man alive and I mean that in the most derogatory way imaginable
I wish this show was gayer
I fucking love the technomages so goddamn much oh my god. They’re soooooo goofy and I need more of them. I was close to dedicating this mega to my love for that one episode where they’re introduced
Anyway this show is fun and cool and good but could be gayer and transer 
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I hven’t seen all of it either but that was a pretty interesting show.
You can stop after season 4 if you want. They were in an odd position where they had a 5 season deal but their network was going under during season 4 sonthey cut the story down and you can tell cause season 4 is rushed. But then another network picked them up for another season and some tv movies when they were almost done with season 4. So the 5th season, while not being the worst, doesnt benefit from hacing been planned out years prior to the series being made like the rest
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A few irl people have told me I can message them if I need anything or if I’m not doing well or whatever and I have only taken people up on this offer a couple of times and idrk if I will again. I don’t feel like they are actually up for dealing with me at my worst.
Which is really the time I want someone the most, but it’s so useless. When I’m feeling all hopeless and miserable and suicidal and dysphoric and hating everything I really don’t feel like there’s a consistent way to pull me out of that. Why would I even message them it’s so depressing.
No prizes for guessing how I’ve been doing
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talking about suicide
whatever I’ve talked about this to fucking death but I may as well post my current thoughts.
So like, I’m rarely suicidal in the way of like, I have a gun to my head and need to be talked down. Its just the mundane, extreme suffering and the only way to end it. Its the natural conclusion of a thoroughly miserable and joyless life. I have no hope of being happy with my body and stuff for myself personally, or of being comfortable interacting with others, or how I feel I am percieved, or really just any of it. It is the only way to escape. An inevitability.
And like, thinking about the people irl, does anyone want a text like this. “I’m so constantly miserable I am going to kill myself. It is inescapable and there’s nothing I can do. I have to suffer a little longer before I put a bullet in my head”. Like no that’s insane. And like again, what’s it even going to do.
Fuck me man. Why’d my life have to be this.
self harm, kinda bad
Keep getting urges and wanting to relapse. I don’t know why I haven’t actually done it again. It feels so good. I can feel it. I want blood. oh my god its always so good. It would feel so right in this mood. I’m safe tonight and don’t really know when/if I’ll go back but fuckk.
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Yeah I get that. Feeling like you’re a burden on the mental health of others. That saying “sorrow shared is sorrow halved” doesn’t feel like it’s actually true when you’re chronically depressed.
Been watching Louis Theroux’s Manosphere, but feeling somewhat ambivalent about the whole thing as a trans lesbian communist. Like I know all these guys suck already. I’m not attracted to them or concerned about any masculinity that I don’t have.
The male loneliness epidemic is framed as a problem for women, because youre supposed to be helping these dudes I guess. Why cant they help themselves? Well, apparently they go to the manosphere so really its all of our faults (somehow).
I dunno, masculinity hasn’t been my problem since before I transitioned. Why don’t the boys try and figure it out themsleves for once.
I’m all for helping them out, but they should try to help themselves out first
Also the “help” they often want is having sex. Same guys who get upset about being “friend zoned”.
Well, yeah, they almost always don’t want help. They want a woman they consider attractive to have sex.
Tomorrow’s weather has a 25 degree temperature shift happening in an hour
That’s happening right before I’m set to leave work so hopefully it won’t feel so hot going home, which is good cause I’m a two layer girlie atm
(After 11 straight hits of wokeness) making fun of anime pfps is transmisogynistic
(Smokes some woke blunts)
Closeted transfemme feels more comfortable wearing the mask of a hyperfeminised character to present herself in the digital public?
Say it ain’t so!
Been wanting to try it/its pronouns for a while as a second secret set of pronouns but put them first so people actually use them hopefully. I don’t have anything poetic to say about it I just think its based.
Lol I ended up installing every single mod on the Viva New Vegas list except JSawyer. I had thought about doing the Wabbajack install but I wanted to know what I was adding. Very excited.
I got three independent compliments on my outfit today and don’t really know what to do with that.
!! ENGAGING
!!All of them were from people who are historically nice to me so I can discount the meaning since they’d have reason to be nice even if it didn’t look that good. Now if they were strangers I’d be forced to take it at face value
!! DISENGAGING
!!It is a pretty nice outfit though, albeit simple. I’m going clothes shopping this weekend since I got rid of 90% of my boy clothes, so we’ll see if I can get more cool stuff.
Every now and again the libraries in my county closed down for “training” 🙄 yeah sure, the real purpose to to keep me from learning too much. The government fears me and knows my thirst for knowledge is never ending, become someone the government fears comrades go read some queer/feminist/anti imperial/vegan theory
we all on some list by now might as well make it to the topI’ve been using my wireless headphones with a wire because my computer didn’t have wifi/bluetooth. But, with doing that, I didn’t have my mic. That kinda sucked and since I’ve been playing games with online people more I figured I’d finally buy an adapter and use them wirelessly. I really like not having the cable, it was always too short and annoying. But now I have to deal with all the shit that comes with bluetooth. They randomly disconnect sometimes, don’t know why. But the bigger issue I have is any time I open a game my background stuff loses a ton of quality and its very distracting. Apparently this is because bluetooth has to split the bandwidth between the mic and sound. How is this still an issue?? I bought a nice adapter too, bt 5.3. And I don’t know how to disable the mic, I use it pretty rarely. So annoying how garbage the audio gets in game though.
I need the weather to stay warm so I can keep wearing crop tops because the world needs more t girl belly
Sitting in the train and get randomly flashbanged by this lady talking about lord of the mysteries and Chinese webnovels with her friend.
My transition has been pretty successful tbh. Just short of my 2 year anniversary, and I mostly pass, even if I have to shave and my voice is deep. I don’t even wear skirts or make-up. Injections are king.
I am so jealous but also so happy for you
I wish I had been doing that well at 2 yearsThanks,
I really didn’t expect it either. I spent most of the first year boymoding, too scared to go into any second hand shop. Luckily I got over my fear and was able to put a lot of time into trying out shit at cheap charity stores till I learned what I liked. Turns out, I like clothes. Also learning about diy hrt and getting on injectables and prog surely didn’t harm me either. I also did do a lot of voice training, almost an entire year, but lapsed due to depression. Still, some of it remains.
