Ya girl is getting the hell out of [red state] and moving to [city in blue state] this week! Will edit mega with more later perhaps.

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  • BountifulEggnog [it/its, she/her]@hexbear.netOPEnglish
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    2 months ago

    Well gays. It is unfortunate that I can’t be a functioning adult though. Blame these fuck ass mental conditions.

    I can’t even begin to search for a job. I don’t know what to do. I don’t think I can do this. “oh everyone-” no. Not like this.

    I need a job but can’t. Fuck me and my life. I can’t cope, I can’t function, I never could.

    • Sleepless One@lemmy.mlEnglish
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      2 months ago

      That sounds like the inverse of my situation. I’m able to hold down a steady job but am too dysfunctional to get my shit together enough to move out of my parents’ house. Congrats on the move, by the way!

      • BountifulEggnog [it/its, she/her]@hexbear.netOPEnglish
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        2 months ago

        I clearly can’t. I’ve been wanting to. I’ve made some attempts. I can’t. I clearly am not as capable as you think. Why else would be be backed up to the move date still not being able to drive. That was my goal.

        I can’t function, and am miserable. What other options do I have. This is unbearable.

        • Alisu [she/her, they/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
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          2 months ago

          I’m sorry you feel that way, I hope you can find a way to be independent. I feel really stuck with my parents too so I know how it is, but some things need time, some more than others, don’t lose hope and don’t give up. And don’t blame yourself, you aren’t the problem, the problem is this hellish society we live in

    • BountifulEggnog [it/its, she/her]@hexbear.netOPEnglish
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      2 months ago
      suicide

      I genuinely should kill myself. I am sick of this. I’ve been doing this and been here for too damn long.

      Almost a year of hrt. I still can’t drive. I can’t take care of myself. I can’t find a job. I haven’t even looked. All I can do is daydream.

      I’m sick of being miserable and dysphoric and everything else all the time.