I ain’t doing all this spy bs. The more I think about it, the more avenues there for things to go wrong. Plus, I’m also going to have to visit Taiwan for important business, and I am not risking taking my hormones there because they have the death penalty and what not for “drug trafficking”.

The whole logistics of hiding around my hormones then using them in secret just makes me think it’s better for me to not even try. Plus, unlike what I thought at firsr, I am definitely getting mood swings from my schedule. If I want to avoid them, I need to speed up my schedule, increasing the risks of being caught.

So yeah, I will be off HRT for a while. Maybe I shouldn’t be making this decision while drunk and on the tail end of my last hormone shot (been 10 days), but I don’t feel like being sober right now. My dysphoria is at a high point so I really just prefer to drink instead of thinking.

Anyway… the latest chapter of kagurabachi was a banger as usual.

  • BountifulEggnog [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    17·
    7 days ago

    I don’t feel like being sober right now. My dysphoria is at a high point so I really just prefer to drink instead of thinking.

    So real tbh. Good luck being off hrt.

  • trinicorn [comrade/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
    15·
    6 days ago

    Its fine to take some time off of HRT. I mean its not the best for me in terms of how I feel mentally, but not catastrophic and physically afaik its fine. I was just off for quite a while and started back up again last week like it’s nothing, felt better after a couple days.

    Its also fine to revisit this when you’re feeling better. None of this has to be a permanent decision you make on the spot and dig into permanently.

    I’ve got a similar relationship with my parents tbh (minus the going through my stuff, though they were a little nosy when I was a kid) so I get the reticence to tell them.

    my strat would probably be to do the spy shit but less “stay-behind weapons cache in the woods” and more “deposit box” or dead drop or something (I stored my hrt just in a cabinet unprotected at room temp for ages, it may not be ideal but its fine).

    I mean honestly, even if you just found say, a trans-friendly business and asked if someone could store your supplies for you, and you just visit once a week, inject in the bathroom, and go home, that could work. It takes some trust and some chatting and feeling it out, but at least where I’m from I’m confident someone would do it for me.

    But you can make your own decisions, I perhaps got overexcited offering ideas, I hope it works out for you regardless

  • peanutbuttercupola [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    13·
    6 days ago

    That sucks. Did you consider using estradiol undecylate? It has a pretty long half life and some people do monthly doses of it. Maybe you could do a large dose right before you leave on each trip? Even if it doesn’t last for the entire time you’re gone, you would be without estrogen for a shorter period of time.