When you’re taking pictures of yourself, don’t use a mirror, it’ll double the dirt and distort you. Just put your phone on a little tripod (very cheap) at waist level roughly 6 feet away, and use the self-timer. Try not to go any lower, that’s how you look like a giant with a chin. Too high above you, and you can look like you have a massive had, and a small body.
Face the light source, not away from it, and diffuse lighting is generally better.
There’s loads of posing guides out their, generally just try to get your whole body standing up. Maybe hit THE POSE.
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Doing some gender theorycrafting. I’m pretty happy with the build I’ve made so far, but still wanna make a few tweaks. Got a few points to move around in the gender skill tree
cw not kink but kink adjacent i guess?
¹ Its my day tomorrow. I need to be kinder to myself. And treat myself well. And celebrate myself. So I got myself a chewtoy stimtoy, a pink bone that i can gnaw on. And a washable plushie with a squeaker in it. I jus wanna curl up and chew on a bone and squeaky my plushie, itll be cozy and perfect, and a good step toward learning to celebrate myself better 
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Idk japanese but i thought the image was cute. If anyone knows, what does this say?
I don’t know Japanese, I took a screenshot and ocr’d the text
寂しいand google translate says it means lonely. Dunno how accurate that is but it seems like it would make sense.I should get something safer to oral stim with too, I chew/use plastic far too often.
Mmm gotcha ty for the translation! Im not lonely… I mean i am but its cause im weird and cant feel the people around me and dont reach out.
Yeah, i want something to chew on, and these are people chewtoys so should be safe.
I keep FUCKING forgetting my support group meets, god that pisses me off. Not like I could have used it after this week
maybe put them on your phone calendar? that’s basically how i remember everything
benign journal posting
Im moving to a much nicer place this week! Much effort soon
I have to wake up early for work tomorrow and Im staying up late anyway
Ive been getting too high recently
cw kink
bought some vegan hard peppermint candies, and they’re oh so good
Are they not normally vegan???
probably but they use bone char to whiten sugar in some places so…who knows?
been drinking hot apple cider with pieces of clove, cinnamon, smashed ginger, and also a 1/16 wedge of lemon.
usually I add orange but the lemon is good too!Getting gender euphoria from being dressed like a punk and walking out in the rain. I don’t know why, I’ve always felt happier when the weather is kind of bad. Maybe it’s the same reason I love blasting music, it gives me something else to focus on. Wondering if anyone else has a similar experience?
My fav weather is night time falling snow thats still fresh, I like the cold and dark and the snow makes the world feel so quiet. Its very cozy, makes me remember some very happy times in my life too
There is something otherworldly about a quiet snow :) Especially if you don’t have anywhere else to be
Absolutely! Rain, nighttime, fog/mist are all really kind to me
Yeah, I love the rain
The age old question
Also the classic “do I want to be with them or do I want to be them?”
I have come to report that I have thrifted new sweaters and am feeling cute as FUCK today wearing one of them
Sweater gang
They are simply the best clothing item to ever exist tbhtbh
Our mood for the day is hug
yay!
Let me in too
welcome! Now it’s a pile
Was having a good morning. A great morning. Probably the best I have felt in a little bit. Then I had something extremely stressful happen at work and now I’m stressing again. Won’t know more until Monday afternoon so that’s stressful too. Time to just stress tf out for the next little bit here. Maybe all weekend. god I need this fucking job too. It is my only reference ever. I don’t think I will be fired but it is so incredibly important that I’m not. I would genuinely be so fucked. I am- despite my depression posting- trying to build my life. I don’t think they will, I would be shocked, but it cannot happen. Holy fuck. Why are my fucking stress levels always so fucking high.
Enby intern at work calling me “man” “guy” “boy” today like it’s a competition to unwittingly misgender me. And I couldn’t correct them because it wasn’t in private and I didn’t want other people hearing.
Usually I don’t mind getting referred to as a man at work because only a few people know otherwise. But the fact that:
- I’ve intentionally never referred to myself as a man with them
- I’ve had no pronouns in my email signature and no name tag at all for months
- we were having a conversation about a coworker who’s recently come out as nonbinary and how the intern could just tell even beforehand -earlier I’d made a point about how I’ve been a fan of the singular they when you didn’t know a person’s gender since elementary (true story, kid me was based)
- and, of course, they’re nonbinary and should presumably know a thing or two about assumptions
Made it just very not good for me. I know it’s not their fault and they almost certainly don’t mean anything by it but still. I thought about it on the train ride home and then laid in bed and then did things to myself that would probably get this comment removed under the new rules.
I did call a friend which helped a little, she was quite supportive
It sounds like there are more than enough signals to at least not assume at this point :/ Unfortunately, trans people can be be clumsy and shitty about gender stuff too sometimes
Are they someone you would consider coming out to sooner to avoid this in the future?
Yeah I even have a note written saying “I’m not a guy btw” that I’m gonna try to pass to them today.
I hope that goes well!
I never really was into writing a diary. I don’t like that kind of schedule. I would always just forget at the end of the night and give up. But sometimes, like tonight, I write a few thousand words about how I’m doing. I think it really helps. I’m pretty optimistic right now, despite it all.
I kept a jorunal as a kid because my grandma liked making them. Anyway I threw it out and burned it when I transitioned cause that shit was painful to read 😬
This a lot of fun but if you ever got a hold of my diary it be so out of order as I like skipping pages and going back to some empty ones. I feel the improv is good and I’ll be honest some entries are just chicken jockey
My hardest fit is my knock off snuggie called “the comfy”
it’s a extra big hoodie basically and I love being in it when I go out
