I dislike having a human form

I don’t have an autism diagnosis but am pretty sure I am somewhere on the symptom having part of the spectrum (i.e. a literal lifetime of interactions where people make jokes or just say things that I have absolutely no idea how to respond to, things like that, which I’ve kind of had to figure out in an intellectual way (masking lol) where for others it seems effortless) so idk if that would skew my response for you

BUT personally I don’t feel uncomfortable imagining “the human form” in general, like thinking of others’ bodies or imagining a human shape. I am, however, increasingly deeply uncomfortable thinking about my own body. I think it’s because I’m kind of an anxious, hyper vigilant person, and I know both a great deal and way too little about biology (perfect score on the SAT2 😎 it really prepared me for a life of drudgery) and how the body functions, so like, I’m left with visceral imaginations of things like arterial plaques just slowly building up and killing me (but without the degree of knowledge where it’s like, yeah, i’m a doctor and I can fix or prevent this). I think about things like blood clots and embolisms and just how easy it is for something minute to go wrong in the wrong place and then, just… you’re dead

So i just try not to think about my body