It’s 3 AM and this makes perfect sense, but it might not after I sleep. Idk I feel really strongly about this part right now, probably need to bring it up in therapy but very curious if it’s at all relatable
I usually rely on my present self for judging me for what I’m currently talking about. It is called multitasking.
Ooh interesting! Sounds like we are both judging ourselves, at the same time, in two different ways 😎
Haha probably not good
Hmm, sometimes I think about that, yeah. Not very often. It might be a form of dissociation.
Ahh disassociation. My old friend
Not how i feel just what instantly came to mind
Lmao
I used to do it a lot when I was young. Honestly, I viewed it as being self aware more so than judgemental however
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I don’t have the mental resources for that sort of second-track thought stuff. Maybe, maybe towards the end of a detailed technical explanation, I’ll think “that was way too fast, apologize for the speed, ask for questions and give them a decent window to respond.” But no, squeezing words out of my thought-mash is generally too much of a task to allow for a getting-nervous task to run at the same time.
Kinda. There are times when I’m in the middle of saying things where I realize that I can’t pull out the right words to make them sound good and as a result it’s going to sound embarrassing.
I find myself doing this whenever I explain anything even slightly complicated nowadays. Well, for some reason if I have a bit of pressure on me and it’s something more official/I’m talking to someone I don’t trust much I lock in and explain things fairly well. But just in a call with friends and I have to explain my idea for a UI component or some historical event? I get in my own head really hard and find it difficult to really put the explanation into words. Maybe it’s because I want to talk the way I write, but I already write in a pretty confusing way sometimes.
