It’s 3 AM and this makes perfect sense, but it might not after I sleep. Idk I feel really strongly about this part right now, probably need to bring it up in therapy but very curious if it’s at all relatable

    • Hohsia [any]@hexbear.netOP
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      11 days ago

      Ooh interesting! Sounds like we are both judging ourselves, at the same time, in two different ways 😎

      Haha probably not good

  • Chump [he/him]@hexbear.net
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    14 days ago

    I used to do it a lot when I was young. Honestly, I viewed it as being self aware more so than judgemental however

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    14 days ago

    I don’t have the mental resources for that sort of second-track thought stuff. Maybe, maybe towards the end of a detailed technical explanation, I’ll think “that was way too fast, apologize for the speed, ask for questions and give them a decent window to respond.” But no, squeezing words out of my thought-mash is generally too much of a task to allow for a getting-nervous task to run at the same time.

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    14 days ago

    Kinda. There are times when I’m in the middle of saying things where I realize that I can’t pull out the right words to make them sound good and as a result it’s going to sound embarrassing.

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      14 days ago

      I find myself doing this whenever I explain anything even slightly complicated nowadays. Well, for some reason if I have a bit of pressure on me and it’s something more official/I’m talking to someone I don’t trust much I lock in and explain things fairly well. But just in a call with friends and I have to explain my idea for a UI component or some historical event? I get in my own head really hard and find it difficult to really put the explanation into words. Maybe it’s because I want to talk the way I write, but I already write in a pretty confusing way sometimes.