I’m so tired of feeling like I’m “crazy” because no one around me can realize that the US is not “on its way to becoming” Nazi Germany, but is in fact already Nazi Germany. I’m so tired of my history of psychosis making me think “Maybe I’m not the only one who can see clearly” as that’s usually a red flag for me. I wish I could just close my eyes and be a lib again, but that’s not healthy or useful. Besides, I don’t think I can close my eyes. But I have a significant disability, so what can even do? I barely work now, and probably won’t for much longer, so it seems organizing would be largely ineffective. Relying on government benefits, I’m just next in line for slaughter. Another voice disappearing into the void. I’m just so tired.
I’ve been trying to tell people that the strength of the German war making came from a bunch of institutions that had been fully bent toward fascism by the time the war broke out. That’s why the DDR had to go back to the 19th century for a sufficiently “German” uniform that hadn’t been tainted by association with German nationalist war. We aren’t getting out of this mess by changing the color of the feather in our cap.