I can never move to Europe (West or scandanvia) or any better country cause assholes in control always want degrees and people who are good at math.

Not only that but I feel so inferior as an American. Everyday, I wish this country had never existed with how rotten and horrific it is. I sometimes think of praying to god (I dont care if you’re an edgelord atheist, don’t judge) for stuff like this or to get better at least. The only thing the US does right is its treatment of violent monsters in prisons, and even then, the system is still as shitty as the country itself.

I can’t even call myself a a christian for how badly they ruined it for us.

I’m a completely useless person so I know I dont have a chance. I am someone who only has an interest in the arts fields with ADHD. But I am interested in coding. I constantly wonder why and wish that I was born abroad instead instead of suffering in a pathetic, gross cesspit of a country. And I’m already aware of all the problems in other countries, yet I constantly wish that I was born there instead. It makes me feel so bad when I hear someone is not american cause I feel even more isolated and I have no idea why.

Even the process of moving abroad makes it seem not worth it to me so I sometimes get stuck. I just wish i was never born. I feel so inferior.

  • athairmor@lemmy.worldEnglish
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    1 month ago

    You’re depressed and depression will show you everything in the worst light. It’s trying to protect you, actually, but the system has gone haywire. It creates a reality for you where everything, including you, is bad.

    You’re living a reality that is unnecessarily negative. That can change but the change has to be inside you. Moving countries won’t change it.

    You need help to break the cycle. Therapy and medication can help. Even religious practice might help if you avoid the most exploitative ones (like outright cults, prosperity gospel, etc). You can join a church that does charity work and help out.

    Start by just observing your negative thoughts. Every time you feel inferior just make a mental note that it’s the depression telling you that.

    And get help when you’re able.

  • Opinionhaver@feddit.ukEnglish
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    1 month ago

    A huge number of people around the world would give up everything they have to switch places with you. The U.S. is still one of the best places in the world to be born. If you can’t find happiness there, you likely wouldn’t find it here in the Nordics either. This isn’t the utopia you might think it is - people here deal with the exact same issues you’re dealing with there.

  • peregrin5@lemm.eeEnglish
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    1 month ago

    Far right authoritarianism is spreading across the world. I’m not sure any country is safe from it. Sure right now it sucks because we are in the middle of it but this likely won’t last forever. There will be a pendulum swing.

    I’m a computer engineer and have a good income and it’s still not easy for me to simply up and switch countries even if I want to.

    Something I’ve been trying to do lately is trying to appreciate what I do have in life and what is good. I can go outside and be surrounded by trees in my neighborhood. I can work on my art in my free time. I like the state I’m in since it’s relatively liberal. I try to appreciate my coffee in the morning. The birds in my backyard. The fluffiness of my cat. Focusing on the positives here and now and being present in my present.

    And I’m doing that not to shame myself for having it better than others. I’m doing it literally as a survival technique. It’s very easy right now to focus on everything wrong, and where I want to be in the future but can’t get to right now. But if I keep obsessing over things I cannot change, I will go crazy.

    Try to find things you can appreciate about your life as it is now and slow down and really take the time to experience and appreciate those things.