seeing all the roundabout justifications to not wash your ass with water after pooping in this thread (which is really not difficult to do at all or even anymore wasteful than washing your hands and face, which i hope yall do but atp wouldn’t be surprised) just further confirms my tendency to distance myself from the cracker and cracker brained
a theory-- to be able to so openly express your gayness/queerness could have been a signifier of a higher status in western society, you have an economic and social advantage and are probably less likely to be persecuted or hate crimed by the people around you or even a random person. i’d imagine homophobia and transphobia were more rampant, or at least less published and talked about than today, so there were definitely gay poor people but i think at that time in history the closeted % was much higher than nowadays. i think you can see a similar dynamic today within communities of color vs white communities; it’s why the public facing queer scene is intensely white, despite being pioneered and propped up by poc. tho this is just me theorizing
kick out and treat all minorities like shit
realize minorities were the only thing propping up this country
blame minorities for being criminals and not wanting to work
i like to pretend that “choosing” to be alone gives me agency and freedom vs trying to not be alone and getting ignored and feeling worse ab myself. but you’re right
Im going hard on personal projects rn (creative field) but none of them are economically viable either, lots of fun and I’m mastering my craft but yea no one gives a fuck and probably never will
Last night i was thinking about how even though i have a lot to offer to others and have admirable qualities (in my eyes) based on how much self work i’ve done to improve as a person, most people see me as completely and utterly useless and a failure because of the simple fact that I don’t have a “career” or income besides some very small passive streams. It’s a pretty painful realization, I won’t be good enough no matter how much I work on myself
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in my entire time i spent living with roommates in a large city, only 1 singular month did i not worry about my downstairs neighbor leaving their tv or radio fully cranked overnight connected to some sort of bassy speaker (and that one month was a quiet but expensive sublet while i transitioned between two places and both those places had the same problem). it was extra bad because i sleep on the floor, both places i happened to be the only roommate affected enough to care, and i was just subletting in cash so i wasn’t able to even contact the landlord (and they were slumlords anyways) and obv roommates were unhelpful. the first neighbor wouldn’t even open the door at all to talk, same with the second until i managed to get their number by leaving weed at their door and even then i was lucky if they decided to turn it down.
all that to say i didn’t realize how deeply that sort of deep frequency can fuck with you especially in an enclosed space whether you’re trying to sleep or just relax or work, and maybe i’m being dramatic but i swear it ruined my quality of life more than i thought it would and i get stressed just thinking about it
the entire american way of life and its values
being alone is painful but not as much as being ignored
yeah i think people are honing in on the “bidet” part with their justifications and ignoring the “wash ass with water using many different possible regularly accessible items”
this is genuinely how some men think
why do westerners do anything
i consistently get a paronychia every month or two and it’s so annoying because the pain is so small yet so unignorable and idk what i’m doing that keeps causing this
Lol reminds me of some friends I was staying with for a bit who were very active pro palestinian activists but had no sense of music taste whatsoever so I kept hearing macklemore and some other rappers who just made painfully bad music but with a good message. Great reminder that a lot of people don’t really engage with art past the surface level even if their politics and intentions are good
Furst
Currently BBB: bouncing my booty to the bass
I am also too stinky and recognizable
Me but with my dry herb vape
personally i’m just playing the long game, prepping myself for death, clinging less, eventually everything we know will perish regardless, it helps that i got out 95% of the things i wanted to do with my life out of the way and have some spiritual beliefs about this life vs the next/the last. it’s a sad ending but i feel fairly proud and content about what i got done with the seed i spawned in
ahhhh sick twisted cruel jester joke haha i get it so funny jokes over stop this now …