mendiCAN [none/use name]

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Cake day: April 17th, 2025

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  • i deleted a reply to roux essentially saying the same as you.

    Maybe part of being ace is alienation… from allo culture, from gay culture, just… in general. A constant sense of trying to be something you’re not.

    i wonder often if our main struggle is with feelings of separateness". Not really a targeted ‘outgroup’, but not feeling part of any in-group. A curiosity if anything, like TNGs DATA. accepted, but not “part of the team”

    it is a strange sensation, always separate, not really a part of any community. feeling fake, again like an android, peering out at allos with curious and sometimes envious eyes, always fighting a nebulous, deeply held fear that it’s not just me, it’s not damage, it’s real.

    i don’t belong; because i can’t understand, no one really wants me around.

    dunno. probably just holdover feelings from all those years not knowing. years trying to fit with allos i couldn’t understand, and the memories of the hurt eyes and name-calling i can’t forget, people who took it personal when i didn’t give them what i was supposed to.

    AAAnyway, in the rare moments i see another gracie, i am heartened to see i share something, even if it’s just the same feelings of confusion and alienation.

    TLDR Im “happy” to see y’all around fightin thru the same feelings i do.

    Happy Pride y’all!

    hexbear-pride

    Yes! You! Ace comrades too!

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