I guess it’s back to it being a protest then. Makes it more meaningful too, I think.

Me whenever I have to build something in the real world.

I’m in a similar boat. I’m in my 40s and transitioned recently and under unlikely circumstances met this girl. We’re perfect for each other and she manages to break down my defences and we’re together for an amazing six months. Then without warning she breaks up with me. Love of my life.

I tried dating someone else after her but she also broke up with me without warning.

This shit gets into your nervous system, you know? I expect this sort of thing now, I have one foot out the door.

Am I supposed to let go of people, forever? Become all delusional with love, have my heart broken, try again? I’m all-or-nothing, it’s the adhd.

I truly believe also that to meet someone like the first girl I mentioned I would need to leave my country. They don’t make them like that around here, our society would never produce that kind of person.

So I’ve given up on finding someone.

Not even I know if I’m bi. I haven’t figured this shit out yet.

Rest in piece :/