I moved from the Pacific Northwest to the East Coast and I miss the steady temperatures and near constant drizzle. Having four seasons bites.

Phineas and Ferb. That’s Dr. Doofenshmirtz.

I had my appointment today, and got some chemical help, so progress is happening.

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I’ve got an appointment later this week to talk to professional types because I’m not handling it well and I don’t think they’d like to see me in the state I currently am.

I hope that you can be too, even for just one person could mean all the difference.

My person like that died last year and I’m still not okay.

Edit:
I appreciate the outpouring of support here.

Story time:

I grew up in an abusive household. My mother had BPD, and my sibling was the golden child. I was the scapegoat.
When things got too hot, I could just show up on my person’s couch, middle of the night, and the only question ever asked was what I wanted for breakfast.

I’ve since moved across the country, but I ache for that sense of security again. Somewhere where I was always welcomed and never made to feel less than. Now that they’ve died, I fear I’ll never find it again.

It’s so hard to deal with, but I need help since it’s been 14 months and I still cry near daily.

I’ve got an appointment later this week to get some professional help, because I don’t think they’d appreciate the mess I’ve become since their passing.

Wish me luck.

I need 13EEEE and I found New Balance to be the easiest to find in that size, since I prefer fabric uppers.

Edit: looked at the shoe when I got home and it’s a 481v3.

Nighthawks is one of my two favorite paintings ever and I appreciate this rendition greatly.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=THc1X-kEX4E