DoomBloomDialectic [they/them, he/him]

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Cake day: June 11th, 2025

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  • fuuuuuuuuck work

    either my one boomer colleague or members of the public are snitching on me/general front desk staff for not Doing the Song and Dance enough - directly after giving me phony ass praise for taking on an extra project, my direct supervisor told me “also, make sure you’re not forgetting to say hi to people as they walk into the rec center :) :) :)” (idk if it’s really his fault, he probably has limited latitude to just Not Respond to those kinds of customer complaints, but still but still but still)

    can we bring the original, actual definition of emotional labor re: service workers/public servants back into public consciousness and destroy the pop psych “oh shit being a good friend or partner is hard sometimes, sorry buddy that’s a you problem nayuta-peace” conception of it that’s taken over???

    career switching to this parks department community service shit sounded real nice on paper (serving the collective good!! no (direct) profit motive!!) but goddam do i fucking hate the american public & their expectation that just because you’re in a public-facing position you become some wholly servile wretch rather than just a motherfucker who’s there to do a job for a wage.







  • small job overshare/vent as a treat

    switching to a field where i am constantly socially available (either to my colleagues (100% of the day) or the general public in addition to my colleagues (~50% of the day)) & there is zero privacy may have not been the move for a neurodivergent introverted sensory-issues-tweaker like me. and the fucked up thing is this is probably like a top two most tolerable job i’ve ever had & i still hate it.

    im burning the fuck out on humanity and working with the general american public is part of what’s got me in a depressive haze and it’s making me a more isolated & less loving person & also i feel like my political organizing life is suffering for it. even just being mildly on the front lines at this job of all the ambient selfishness & entitlement & reaction floating around our class in this country has me in a nihilistic rut.

    idk i am just struggling to find the lovable parts in people alongside the annoying/selfish parts even though i know rationally blah blah blah we’re all results of material conditions, people are reachable/changeable, they aren’t fundamentally bad, i’ve been many many worse versions of myself in the past so i should practice empathy & forgiveness to the greatest extent possible, blah blah blah yes i know and deep down i agree but rn i’m just not in that headspace.

    like even when the public is Fine i feel like i sense a lurking darkness and transactional apathy and i don’t know if this is just me/my insecurities and my temperament being bad for this work, if i’m sensing something real, or a mix of both.

    (my coworkers are a whole nother matter but i’ll leave that aside)