BilduEnjoyer [he/him]

Trans-masc basque diaspora who recently escaped USA to the Basque Country.

Elder millennial artist, big nerd. Plz don’t be mean 2 me.

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Cake day: January 22nd, 2025

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  • Every time I see Pirate Software I do a double take because I actually met Thor in person multiple times (he is/was a friend of a friend). I’ve had conversations with him and spoke with him at parties. I had no idea he was a big streamer (Tho this was just before he used the algorithm to get big). Not gonna post more details because dox etc.

    Let me just say- THIS GUY IS ALSO INSUFFERABLE IRL.

    He would only ramble on about himself and he got offended by the most mundane shit at the drop of a hat. I tried engaging with him by showing him a trailer for Metal Hellsinger after he started talking about wanting to do a rhythm style shooter and he got mad (??? WHY???) and he just had no sense of humor, all ego, no fun allowed.

    Anyway, he was booted from the friends group for a variety of reasons with Palestine being one of them. He is so insecure, which would be fine if he wasn’t an asshole.





  • Yeah my brother was in a stable home and was medicated. He basically went out for a walk and didn’t come back and was reported missing and vulnerable the same day. The news and local subreddits posted about it and he has a lot of people looking for him, but I have a feeling that my mom didn’t give the full story because from what I read family members/the press were told that my brother did not have a history of suicidality or self harm but oh boy, that’s an absolute lie.

    I want to get a hold of the detective and give them the full history but then I worry they’ll just go “eh, ok it’s suicide then” and then write the situation off. (Which they absolutely would do).

    It’s so shitty. The lack of closure is so painful. I’m sorry about your uncle.

    ACAB, 1312, etc.








  • I’ve been watching Hasan a lot lately since I moved to Europe. I like watching the Turkish man yell at hogs while he feeds me news highlights.

    Hasan has said, repeatedly, on his streams that he doesn’t want to leave because “can’t tell me what to do, I’m stubborn, this is my home etc etc”. This may be a bit parasocial but the guy comes across to me as someone who hates changing his routine to the point where he’s putting himself in harms way.

    It was really interesting watching his interview last night with Chris Hedges, because Chris straight up told him, “You know, they’re preparing to try and have you killed. It’s blood libel because they want your blood.” This is coming from a well seasoned investigative reporter who has lost a lot of journalist friends, if Hedges is saying Hasan should protect himself then I hope that Hasan listens.

    Amazing interview BTW. There were several moments where Hedges sat Hasan down and laid out the ugly truth for him regarding Gaza and Hasan looked a bit shaken up. I think Hedges at one point said, “The reason the media is relaxing is because it’s too late, unless the famine is broken within the next few weeks- hundreds of thousands will die from starvation. Unless something radical happens soon- it’s inevitable. I have seen this before.”

    I’m really hoping Hasan stops being stubborn and gets the fuck out of the US because he’s not only putting himself, but his entire family, at risk. While he’s not perfect I’d much rather him continue his work as a leftist entry point and propagandist than become a martyr.



  • What really stands out to me is how much good infrastructure bakes in human needs.

    In the US I would have to plan walking 10k steps a day. I would have to plan every social interaction. I would have to plan when to go out of the house. No spontaneity. Spontaneity requires money, because that would mean having to get more gas because you HAVE to drive a car. It’s a lifestyle that is antithetical to the needs of the human animal.

    While in Spain, my needs are baked in. I walk 10k steps a day because I don’t use a car. I meet my friends because they live in walking distance. I eat better food because regulations mean less garbage in my food. I am spontaneous and walk down mystery streets and explore. There are outdoor gyms and games and events and things to do -for free- all the time. I’ve already cut my anxiety medication down in half.

    I’m very, very grateful to be here.


  • Virgin USA burger lifestyle- Get up, go to work, go home, tv, bed. Meticulously plan every social interaction and pray people don’t cancel. Stay inside and game/watch streams because even though you work your ass off- no money. Go to the same nature parks repeatedly because they are in walking distance. (This is a luxury) Become nervous about driving due to gas prices and risk of accident because you cannot afford to lose your 20 year old vehicle in this market. Spend 60$ for a bag of groceries.

    Chad Basque Country Lifestyle- Get up, go to a new cafe because there are 20 of them within a 10 minute walk and it’s fun to try new things. Dig change out of your bag to pay for your breakfast. On your way to get coffee you run into one of your friends. They introduce you to another friend. You have just made a new friend. The park has a ping pong table. Play ping pong. It’s time to get groceries. You use more change to get a fresh bundle of veggies that were grown locally. You spend 5 - 10 euros and get a few days worth of food. After lunch, you take the metro for a euro and go to the beach.


  • Super late response, I’m busy touching grass lol.

    Also I’m out of ADHD medication so this is going to be a ramble post.

    I’m not going to throw shade on the person who deleted their comment because I get their frustration especially when there are so few leftists in America. I get it, it is disheartening to see people leave. I imagine that the poster feels some betrayal and I only have empathy for them. I just ask that people BE KIND because we need each other.

    I’m nearly 40. I’m transgender. I came from a very abusive home situation and after I moved out I immediately got into another abusive situation, was a victim of a crime, nearly died, and spent 10 years recovering from CPTSD and undergoing intensive therapy. Thankfully I built a strong found family network who fundraised the money to help ship my ass out of America because I am eligible for citizenship in Spain. Said found family along with myself is now working to help other trans found family escape the country. We got two more leaving in October, another next year. Mutual aid, baby.

    I mention my mental health history because the psychic damage of America was actively harming me. I could not take anymore harm. I’ve been through enough, and I’m sick of being unable to find a foothold in a forever home. Going into middle age means prioritizing my health and getting serious about my long term plans. This is impossible in America.

    Like you, America is a place I do not have strong attachments to. I have always felt more love for the Basque Country. I thought a lot about staying and fighting. Leaving was not an easy decision and yes some part of me feels selfish for doing so, but how much good can I do from the USA? I was miserable there, I was so depressed I had trouble leaving my bed when I wasn’t busy going to work. I didn’t have the energy to help with organizing, and I could barely keep my head above water let alone help other people. Every time I felt like I was getting stability I’d be hit with random bullshit that took it all away in an instant.

    For some, there is enough attachment and love for their community, culture, and country that it is worth staying and fighting for a better future. For some, they have no choice but to stay and fight. For me, America has only been pain- and I had a choice to leave and I took it. Now I will help others like me leave for greener pastures.