To prefix this, I’d like to say that I don’t consider these nudes. I mean sure, they are pictures of my nude body, but I don’t consider them sexual. I just want to get other people’s opinions on this.

Pics here

So, there’s something truly strange about the shape of my body. Like, I have ridiculously broad shoulders, very bad posture and also (IMO) a really masculine face, but I also have…hips? I guess??

It’s like, during the development of my upper body, nature was like:
“Boy? Boy. Yess, boy. Big shoulders. Angular face.”
And then for my lower body, it was like:
“Wait a minute…she might come to accept herself as a girl someday…screw it. Girl it is.”
That’s like literally what happened 😭

My body isn’t feminine. Well, my breasts might be 😂. But the general shape I’d say is kinda androgynous. Like I have a decently slim waist, combined with my semi-hips makes a really interesting illusion. The illusion of a feminine silhouette. Sadly it’s just a good angle and arching my back really hard, lol.

In any case, my boyfriend has a pretty good view, I’d say 🤣

I guess I’m not upset. Sure, it could’ve been a lot better and more feminine, but also…I feel like it could’ve been a lot worse. Like, I could’ve been a literal brick.
Am I crazy? Does this come across as arrogant? I’m really sorry, I’ve just been wondering about this since pre-HRT times. Now I have a platform where I actually feel safe talking about stuff like this…

So umm. Feel free to comment, criticize, roast or anything else. And…thank you, I guess? I really don’t know what I’m expecting out of this. I guess I’ll see.

  • Hildegard (she/her)@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
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    2 months ago

    Well try to teach yourself to see it. I showed your post to my wife, who is cis, and she agreed with my assessment. Not only that, she was able to name four cis woman she knows who have significantly broader shoulders than you. You body is fine, no sense worrying about it.

    Dysphoria is real. Feeling how you feel about your body is reasonable and to somewhat expected. But be aware it’s not reality. You are projecting your own insecurities onto yourself. It may scream man to you, but that’s not how your body looks to anyone else.

    Start telling yourself you look good. You are a beautiful woman. It will take time but eventually you’ll believe it. Positive self talk can go a long way if you let it.

    • Miisha ♀️@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
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      2 months ago

      I showed your post to my wife, who is cis, and she agreed with my assessment. Not only that, she was able to name four cis woman she knows who have significantly broader shoulders than you.

      🥺
      I…uhh. Thank you. I don’t think anyone has actually ever been that kind to me…
      I used to get bullied and called fat while attending my first elementary school (I transferred away from that place).

      I’ll try to be nicer to myself, I guess. Honestly, thanks a lot ❤️