Hopefully, most of the time. I feel like I’m generally friendly and helpful, and compared to many people around me I feel like I don’t let myself get to carried away with anger or frustration. I’m not too good at showing it though. Due to autism I feel like there’s a bit of a difference between how society expects people to show friendliness and how I do it. I’m quite reserved and I usually don’t randomly show up or give gifts or something. I generally don’t care about my own birthday and such, and therefore I’ll also not think about those things for others. I try to detect when it does matter to people, and think of something to do or give, but honestly these expectations really stress me out.

I can definitely be a bit of an asshole sometimes though. I don’t like people talking nonsense. In places where it matters, like work, want direct communication, with as little weaseling around as possible. No big words, no politics. So I will be that person that asks the “rude” and difficult question if it’s necessary. I’m also quite stubborn, and require strong argumentation to actually be convinced of something. I’ve become more aware of this, so I tend to think twice nowadays to ensure that I’m really fighting a fight worth fighting and don’t let myself get carried away too much with debating minor things.