That actually sounds really interesting. And almost like a creative line of work. I’m sure you never dreamt of working in something marketing related when you were a kid but as far as things that actually pay the bills go, sounds like a pretty cool career.

Oh, now that you say it, I think I might’ve even seen you mention that before around here somewhere. But not something I’d expect lol. Not entirely sure what it entails so I’m making assumptions but I could see researching and categorising and sorting things for a living being pretty stimulating and not as mind numbing as a lot of lines of work.

I say take as long as you need with these. If you’re anything like me, if your heart and creativity isn’t in it 100% and especially if it starts feeling like an obligation or chore, then you wouldn’t be happy with your work anyway.

That said, your writing and presentation and whatnot is awesome. You have a skill of pulling the reader in from the start and wanting to know more. If you don’t do writing related work, you should.

Also, I very much get the impression that this is just scratching the surface with this woman. Sounds like someone definitely worth doing more reading up on. Her fate at the end there makes me feel like stocking up on Molotov cocktails.

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Phones have become boring and are all the same. I want options like we had with Nokia back in the day. So a music phone, gaming phone, business phone etc. but with a modern OS. All we have now are camera phones. Google announcing that they’ve added a second possible function to The Button in settings just doesn’t excite me. Smartphones have become shit and it’s not because we’ve perfected them or some shit, it’s because chasing lines on marketing graphs and playing follow the leader has resulted in no choice anymore and everything being lowest common denominator, mass produced slop.

Yes. 💜 for my favourite people. 🙂 for people I’ve interacted with once or twice and would like to interact with more. ⭐ for people that I haven’t interacted with but always enjoy their posts and comments. ✊ for similar reasons to the star but I like their politics.

I’ve also given one person a red flag 🟥 but haven’t seen them again. There’s a couple more I could probably give red flags to but also I would prefer to see more friendly symbols in my feed than danger warnings.

And seeing as you asked so nicely, I haven’t tagged you yet but I think I’ll give you a 🙂.

The behaviour was based on Windows desktop apps in the 90s

Ah, so that’s why it was chosen as the default here.

When I first signed up here, or tried to sign up here, join-lemmy just didn’t want to load anything. So I ended up going to bed and trying again the next morning. The next morning, it finally loaded the list of instances and going by the experience I had just had with the website battling to even load anything, I chose an instance advertised as “join here to reduce load on larger instances”. And this instance just didn’t want to load anything properly. Half of the images in posts just weren’t showing up. And when I searched LGBTQ+ and feminist communities, only dead communities showed up and I’m pretty sure nothing from Blåhaj.

Then I went to world and still found it to be a ghost town. Eventually I realised that it was because ‘English’ wasn’t selected in my language settings. Because I didn’t realise that you have to ctrl click to select both ‘undefined’ and ‘English’. I’ve used software where you have to ctrl click but I’m not sure I’ve ever come across another website where this is the case. And on this note, the whole fact that ‘undefined’ even exists as an option comes across as bush league and makes it look like a beta version.

Then there’s another issue here. The god damn internal politics. So someone signs up on the insurance that says “focused on programming and development”, then have everyone calling them a tankie or be cut off from multiple instances that have de-federated. It’s clear to me now that ‘ml’ stands for “Marxist Leninist” but when you’re new here and just looking at descriptions in join-lemmy, it just looks like a unique url like all the others.

Personally I think there’s a lot of reasons that people would give up trying to get started here. That’s before even trying to break them ice with a silly question in AskLemmy and getting snarky snark and smart asses in the replies. And I use that as an example because in my first week here, I saw someone post an innocent question in AskLemmy, get hostility as a response, then leave.

Astrid from Fringe. She’s just the nicest person in the show and cool and smart. It’s hard to pinpoint what exactly, she’s just an extremely likeable character. And watching it more than once, it’s actually sad how little she really got to do in the show. She barely gets a backstory.

Also, I don’t know if it counts but in Walking Dead it felt like all of my favourites were side characters because all of my favourites died. I actually stopped watching after season 5 because both of my top favourite characters got killed within episodes of each other and I just didn’t really have a reason to keep watching. Everyone that was left was an asshole.

I hope this changes with generations

I had this hope too but it’s hard to maintain while watching gen Z go down the manosphere rabbit hole and start to turn to religion again and shit. And even certain people from my own millennial generation that seemed progressive 10 years ago have been replaced by pod people these days.

With the way things are going in the world right now, the only hope I’ve still got is that one of these days everyone wakes up and realises the damage they’re causing and we see a major swing in the opposite direction.

Ah thank the gods, I was waiting for my morale boost.

That’s fair. Sad that you felt you needed to hide part of you at first but I know how things are, so totally understandable. At this point though, if someone wants to attack you, we’ve all got your back lol. I’m sure I’m not the only one here that very much appreciates having you around.

And yeah, that is another reason to try different instances. I still want to check that alt community out that I can’t see from here. I’m of two minds about this. On one hand I appreciate the level of moderation and protecting users on Blåhaj but on the other hand, I’m not against deciding for myself and doing my own blocking and moderation

On the note of recognising people around here, I’ve been wanting to ask. What’s up with the other account? Have you got an impersonator on lemmy.world or are you just trying different instances out of curiosity?

I’ve actually been considering making a second account for news and politics, then blocking all of that from this account so that I don’t have to despair and/or rage daily.

Thank you again, it definitely does help to let it out sometimes. And it’s nice to feel like you have a bit of community on here, as opposed to Reddit where you’re just another part of the crowd. I barely used to even look at people’s usernames on Reddit, this dynamic here on Lemmy where you see the same people regularly is new to me. At first I didn’t like it but it’s actually kinda cool.

Thank you, awesome person in my phone. It already made me smile early today getting this response, so hopefully today is better than yesterday. Basically the TL;DR is life is shit, everything to make it not shit costs more and more money, and money is scarce and hard to come by and hard to save or do anything worthwhile with when you’re just getting little bits of relief at a time.

But despite the downward spiral I was on yesterday, I do have half a plan of starving and neglecting myself a bit so that I can save up for that teaching English course. I’d love to actually go into programming because there’s probably better money in it but at this point, my brain is too stressed and frazzled for it. So first I need some basic income so that I can try the programming thing when I’m a little more comfortable and less worried about everything.

Just want to say, I was trying to answer your question without offloading too much, and I’m sorry that I kinda did. We all have problems and I don’t want to make mine yours or anyone else’s. I’m just feeling sorry for myself right now, that’s all. And I’ll probably magically feel better when I get my hands on some herb again. Tbh I’m thinking of deleting my first response because it’s a bit much. Thank you for being kind and asking tho.

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As far as my life in the real world that I have to live goes: bitterly disappointed. As far as my sense of identity and beliefs go, happy. But also disappointed that I only got to this point when it basically seems like it’s too late.

I just hope that in this hypothetical situation where my 15 year old self gets a glimpse of me now, that it causes my 15 year old self to do things differently and have a great life in a parallel universe.

Yup same. I’ve been checking for the next one all weekend.

Wow no way! Are you telling me that the guy who hosted Fear Factor isn’t a scientific expert? Next you’ll be telling me that he isn’t an expert on politics or sociology either. And I’m not sure that I believe it. I mean, just look at how swole and manly he is. How could you not trust this guy with everything from voting advice to issues that should be left to scientists?